The Torments of Age

You know.... if only the things that happened to the aged would happen to the aged... not me.

OK, I went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button recently (very recently. In fact I saw it a few days ago on new years eve) and it was a movie that confronts the audience with the emotions associated with aging. Not only does one of the characters start disliking the fact that she's getting older but to rub it in and make her even more jealous is that Benjamin loses the wrinkles she gains. It was a very depressing movie at times but absolutely brilliant! I actually came close to tearing up (no where near crying though.... takes the death of someone for that...) because I really fear age. It's scary. I try not to think about how I am 16... nearly 17... I've been around for nearly 2 DECADES and I've only started really enjoying my life as much as I like. I've only started dating people... in another 20 years I won't be able to move around and do certain things I would be able to do in my youth. Youth is wasted on the young indeed. I fear getting older and dread the day I turn 40. I've got 20 years left before things start going south in the body department and 50 before they start going in the mind department. Scary to think about how little of my precious time I've used towards getting the career I want or being able to enjoy the prime of my youth because I'm not that fit and it's very depressing....

... so let's move on.... on to the present instead of the future. OK, the thing about age is that it's meant to happen to old people not me. I recently found a grey hair and it was a shock (I've still got the damn thing!) and I went on about how OLD I was becoming and all that. I realise now that a grey hair is irrelevant and not important........ especially not compared to being almost completely deaf!!! Yeah that's right. I may physically appear to be 16 (well actually I look between 18-20 according to lots of people....) but I'm getting rapidly closer to resembling being 709... grrr... but this time having the hearing of a 70 year old man is not natural but by my own hand....

Yeah... and this isn't the first time it's happened before but it's certainly the worst of all the times. OK, you know those cotton tip swab things that people use to clean out their ears? Well, only that people say now you shouldn't use them for that because they can damage your ears (Then why are still around? What do they do!?) and well.... they're right... everytime I've used them recently they have caused me to become deaf. I think this is the third time it's happened and it's taken me this long to realise that shoving things into my ears is a bad thing!!!

Warning: own stupidity and inability to realise that this product is not to be used may result in damage to ears or self-pride.

Now if that was on the label I would..... well, actually, maybe I still would use it! (Stupid warning labels can't boss ME around!) But it wasn't and I still used the stupid things and now I can't hear. I went outside and the trees were blowing in the wind.... the silent wind... As I walked I knew that I should be able to hear clearly my footsteps but I couldn't. I was surrounded by things that should make noise and there was nothing but the peaceful tranquility of nature.... even though the "nature" is just a small patch of sandunes that is surrounded by houses and the sounds of traffic are almost always audible to able-bodied people when walking up and down the dunes. I wanted to listen to music because silence bores me so I get earphones, turn the volume up to absolute maximum (which we all know from experience is very very loud!!) and it was like I was just listening to it at normal volume... maybe even slightly less.... and I don't listen to music that loudly. I've got the speakers going right now (not at max though) and it's barely even at background music levels... I dislike being deaf. Can't hear anyone when they talk to me and I keep thinking whenever I say something I'm being overly loud because I keep going "WHAT!?"

I sure hope this isn't permanent and goes away... my girlfriend talks quite softly and quietly most of the time and it's not easy to hear her when you tower a foot over her... being almost completely deaf will make it dificult to hear her without the aid of the "increase volume" button on the phone :P I view this as a very bad thing....

Hey will I get arthritist next? I've already got back pain and my neck is shot. I know for a fact my eyesight is destined to degrade to the point where I need glasses around the age of 20 to 30 so hey... I guess I'll just start acting old....

Oh no... a FOUR HOUR car ride without a single noise besides the faint hum of passing traffic! I wanted to listen to my favourite cello-metal bands on the way to Augusta but no! If it isn't fixed by then I'll be going there in silence! Why!?

Apocalyptica

OK I'd just to inform everyone that neo-classical symphonic cello metal is the best genre of music of all time and I love it... it is also not real. (I just put lots of different genres together because they're similar and all just really awesome) I have recently discovered that Metallica sounds unbeleivably awesome when played on the cello and so I have gone out and bought every Apocalyptica album I could find! As in ONE ALBUM! (Btw if you haven't realised yet... Apocalyptica is a band with lots of cellos in it and is famous for doing covers of Metallica and having other people sing in their songs) Yeah, why is it that all the bands that I love over all others decide to just so happen to not be popular enough to have much mention in shops? AC DC has... OK apparently their still doing things (Darn, bad example. Was going to say they haven't done anything since the mid 80's and they still have a whole row of space in JB-Hi-Fi to themselves) Well I like bands that people don't care about... The little section for apocalytpica is a little card with their name on it hidden behind other cards with bands names on them that also don't appear to be popular... Took me a while to find it before I realised there wasn't anything there next to it! So had to wander around a lot before I found another CD store and finally found (after experiencing the same problem) that they had only one of their albums and only one copy of that. It was their newest one which has "I don't care", "I'm not Jesus" (It's true, Corey Taylor isn't Jesus) and "Worlds Collide" so yeah. Unfortunately no Metallica covers (or Nirvana. Now I dare anyone on earth to listen to the Cello rendition of Smells like Teen Spirit and not at least smile or think it sounds cool :P) but it does have that lovely voice from Lacuna Coil in one song so I is happy now :)

... Oh yeah plus Good Charlotte had a "Buy me now! I'm cheap!" Sticker on it... I like Good Charlotte... but apparently not many other people do because the stores want to get rid of the CD's they have...

OK I'm now uncool for liking bands with "I'm cheap" stickers on them. Yay!

Oh yeah plus this blog entry isn't actually funny and it's just me blogging about what I did today (Because I have nothing to do on the computer I just want to listen to my NEW CD and so need to do something so I have an excuse for hogging the computer... and it's lovely black speakers that play the sweet cello music I do so adore) so hope anyone out there has enjoyed my story of how I went to the shops and then bought something... as you normally do at shopping centres...

CENTRES! OK! NOW I have something to blog about! I am currently reading a book on psychology I got from (guess where?) THE LIBRARY! :O And there's this thing that I do when reading books that I have developed this year where I read things and check for any spelling errors. The Choson by Chaim Potok is one prime example of how not to write a book... As in writing it without going over and checking for errors like on pg 155 "Siad" and 254 "looke" and a few more but I don't remember them. Anyway, (btw if anyone can tell me the grammatical error in Twilight and what chapter it is in you shall get a free cookie point! :P I know where it is now you go find it. Btw, Oestrogen is spelt with an O on the beginning so grr you Americans! Even though the author is... English) I was reading this book only a minute after getting it out and I have a little thing where I get annoyed at American spellings but can handle reading an entire book with people spelling "Colour" without a U so when I read the middle of the first page and it said "Center" at the end of a sentence that was OK... But then the very next sentence only THREE words away from "center" was "centre" (which for those out there is actually the real spelling. Just want to inform you that everyone else is wrong and "Litre" and "Metre" are spelt like that because their French...) and I was just like "... WHAT!?" And I rushed over to my mother to inform her that the book was basically WRONG! (WRONG!) I am OK with people spelling words one way or another... but you must PICK ONE! (ONE!) It just looks stupid if you say "The gray colour of the armor was not the color of normal armour but an amasingly amazing shade of grey" (It's also weird that you're repeating the same words over and over again... and over again...) so yeah. First page and I've found something that's not quite a spelling error but very weird and in the same sort of ballpark as one. (I write these things down on the bookmarks I use for the book)

Please don't correct the spelling in this blog though... I know I might spell a few words wrong but when I look back I realise and then correct them... very annoying seeing "jsut" (I type fast and make mistakes... Jsut is just one of those common ones)

Have a nice day to all the people who I know for sure read this. (A lot of them start with the Letter B :) yes, You know who you are! :D And have a very good day to that someone who starts with L)